Meredith told me a while ago that she wanted me to surprise her more often so, I'm giving it a try.

I'm not very good at this whole thing. I never was. I guess it's because I never really liked surprises when I was younger. Oh well, here it goes.

She should be here soon so...

Meredith and I decided to move in together. She asked me if I was ready and I think I am, I do love her. I've just been thinking about it a lot. 

I talked to Addison. She doesn't seem to be doing very well. We're working on this whole 'Peacefully Co-Existing' thing and it's turned into what I hope is us becoming friends again. Addison was one of my best friends for a very long time. I told her things that I never told anyone else. I've been thinking really hard and I realized that I don't want to lose that. It doesn't mean that we're getting back together. (Why would we do that?) It just means that we're going to try to get the old (friends) us back.

I miss what we had. Meredith is great and I love her but, like I said, there are things that I've told Addison, experiences we went through together that Meredith and I won't have (At least not for a very long time, I hope) Addison's having some trouble with Mark (not that I'm surprised) and I feel bad for her. 

I need to call Meredith, I kind of just left yesterday without saying anything.

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Derek picked up the phone and dialed Meredith's number, waiting for her to answer.

Meredith told me she wanted to be Bright and Shiny. We tried it for a day and I'm not very good at it.

I'm trying to have a mature relationship with Addison but, it's hard when she won't stop nagging me to help her. She thinks the Chief needs help keeping his marriage with Adele together. She said he sounds depressed and we should help. I don't know how she thinks we can help him. Addison and I don't exactly have a model relationship.

I decided I'm going to be Dull and Lifeless. Hope it works out better than Bright and Shiny.